Monday, April 23, 2007

Can I trust anyone? Can any of us really trust anyone? I have always been a very trusting person. I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. The more I think, the more I think back over the years, the less I trust anyone. How do we know that a person can be trusted? Who can we trust? When I think back, some of the people I've trusted the most have lied to me. I'm sure they thought it was for my benefit. Or maybe they thought it didn't matter. None the less they lied. I've always just blown it off, not making a big thing out of the lie. What's wrong with me, I should be outraged, that person who I trusted lied to me! I wish I could somehow detect a lie.

I think people lie to each other every day, every hour. We are all liars. Someone tells you something, then later they tell you a slightly different version of the lie, and yet another version of the lie, and so it goes. I am very forward with people. I'll come right out and ask them very pointed questions, and they look me in the eye and say "Honest, blah, blah, blah...". I've always believed them. Now I realize that I have been a sucker, you know, there's one born every minute. This whole matter of who can I believe, what can I believe... is driving me crazy. I have been having trouble lately thinking things through and this lack of trusting anyone is part of the problem. It was much easier to think things through when I trusted the information I have. Maybe I should pretend to trust people, at least then I can make some sense of everything...even though it's a lie.