Friday, June 04, 2010

Hello. If there is anyone out there who still checks this blog once in awhile, I'm back. At least for today. I have been doing other writing which is draining the reservoir of my mind...which is not that deep to begin with. None of the other writing heightens my awareness like this blog. The writing here is less inhibited since there are very few, if any, readers. It is writing for my sake.

Lately I've thought about doing things simply to "write" another chapter in my life. Wouldn't it be cool to do something way outside of the norm? Something that makes people gasp! To steal a line from a Chuck Prophet song, "...let's do something wrong, let's do something stupid, something we'll regret tonight, anything but the same ol' nonsense..." Doesn't that sound fun! We all become conditioned to behave a certain way. Our parents started erasing the magic from our souls when were very young. Then our teachers, our bosses, our clients, our spouses, our friends, even ourselves continued to cover our free spirit. It's sad when you think about it. It may be hidden, but never eliminated. The spirit remains in us.

I've lived a rather precarious life by many standards. I look at some of my friends and I think, "How do they stand living in that narrow-minded maze they call life?" Maybe I've spent so much time close enough to the edge that I see the possibilities of letting go. What am I capable of? How high could I soar if the shackles are unlocked? Do I have the keys? I think of Edgar Allen Poe, Michelangelo, Hemingway, Twain and Disney. Those guys were out there. People of their times thought they were crazy! Is making every attempt to reach your true self crazy?

I want to be crazy.